Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Remember…

…when the days seemed so long and weeks were endless? Time had no meaning, except that a year seemed like an eternity? Christmas and Easter seemed so far apart and birthdays never seemed to arrive fast enough?

Pat&Vick

I remember a time when I didn’t worry. I didn’t think enough about the future to worry about what might happen. I didn’t worry about how I looked or how I appeared to other people. I didn’t worry about what other people thought of me. I was probably about 5 years old.

If I got sick,I just got sick. I didn’t sit and stew about having a fatal disease. I just dealt with life in the moment.

But as I grew and became more accustomed to being in the world, I learned to worry. I learned to feel guilt. I learned to think that my worth was dependent upon what I did. If I got A’s I was good, if I got B’s I wasn’t as good, if I got D’s…. now that was bad.

I learned to judge myself on my accomplishments and the days became shorter and shorter as I crammed activities into every available moment.

For the past few weeks, I’ve been taking break from the insanity of constantly “doing something” and frankly, it feels weird. Like I “should be” painting a room, making more teddies, cleaning out drawers, changing the house around, making clothes, organizing my life, cleaning out the car (ugh!) ….. ha …DOING SOMETHING… but I haven’t been.

PatVicki1

In fact I’ve been kind of lazy… at least by my standards. I actually read a novel. I mean, most of the day this past Sunday, I simply read a book. Instead of doing the laundry, baking bread, cleaning something again… I read a novel. It was wonderful.

Am I getting old? Most certainly I am. And it seems like I am being gifted with a kind of dawning and awareness of my life and how my life is not about “getting something done” all the time.

Gosh, if I don’t learn how to take a break and play a little, I’m going to be a sad old lady.

So here’s to those lazy, hazy, crazy days of Winter… 

7 comments:

  1. I'm with you Vicki! Technology has given us the ability to live life at a very fast pace indeed but our bodies are still at the horse-and-cart stage! I cannot be doing with stress and pressure any more - I get rid of it whenever I can and I do what my body tells me I can do and no more! Result? - peace and contentment :o)

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  2. My one and only New Years Resolution was to cut stress right out of my life. I have done the mileage and now I deserve to be stress free! So, Vicki, relax, take it easy and do what you want to do when you want to do it ... and enjoy it.

    Pat xx

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  3. I so agree, Vicki, but not always easy to do. We seem to be programmed to do.
    We need and deserve "me" time. I'm glad you're taking some. It's good for the soul.
    Enjoy yourself, do nothing... like me!
    Hugs and Love ♥

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  4. I just wonder "who" will keep the world turning while we are all on break... sigh. Thanks for the words of wisdom, my friends.

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  5. We all need a break now andd then...isn´t

    Hugs,
    Leny

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  6. Hello Vicki, this post certainly strikes a chord!
    Enjoy your precious "me time" you deserve it! Sometimes we all need to be still for a while it's just that in the midst of our fast and busy lives we forget.
    So relax and enjoy :-)

    Hugs,

    Ginie-Lee

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  7. Nice to hear from you Leny and Ginie-Lee!

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